Inna-Truth'S Personal Blog
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Tuesday 13-05-2008, 0:44 AM, The Hague
Normally I would still have a long night ahead of me now. But not tonight. I spent my weekend on some island somewhere in a lake between one place and another...It was quite strange. The island was small. Smaller than a football field. With some trees, bushes, grass. We (family) went there with a boat...ofcourse...and just stayed there for a night. It was nice. When all went to bed, my brother and I sat at the water, in which the moon lay stretched out and we spoke about all matters of life.
He is just back form his trip to Africa. He has become a lot calmer. And has 'the glow' in his eyes. The eyes reflect the state of our connection with the soul. If our connection is bas, thee eyes look dead, or even 'angry'. But when are properly connected with the soul the eyes look friendly. Joey had a glow in his eyes. Which is very logical. He has been in the jungle. He saw hippo's, elephants, monkeys, birds, big lizzards, huge trees, lightning and the stars. It's great to see him like this. And it makes me want to go to Africa even more. Well, one and a half month is not that long ofcourse. In the meantime, I'll try and get as much done as I can: school, the album, the live act...you know.
Anyway, I feel like I am not making a whole lot of sense. Excuse my spelling mistakes. I am too tired. I slept in a tent, which isn't that bad, but the airbed was just too full of air. It was hard and my pillow was hard, and the air was moist, and it was cold...So I didn't get much sleep.
Yeah.
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Thurday 8-05-2008, 3:36 AM, The Hague
Right now, I am sitting on my balcony. It is very dark but the sky is bright. The stars shine and remind me of our punity.
I have been working on the album cover all day. It is becoming very nice and that makes me happy. I have been working on this project for two years now. How long. It blows my mind. I have never worked on something for such a long time. But I have learned a great deal along the way and wouldn't want to trade the past two years for anything. I was thinking about something and came up with the following. It regards this creation and the logical existence of a Creator. Here goes:
I think first off, everyone will agree there are certain rules in this universe. For example if we look at atoms, and study their system, we can learn a great deal about the solar system. And if we study a drop of water, we can learn a great deal about the ocean.
Now, gather a piece of paper and a pen. Quickly draw a line on the piece of paper. Would you agree that this simple, meaningless line would not have emerged on that piece of paper if you didn't draw it? I think we will all agree that this simple line cannot come into existence by itself.
It is simply impossible. That's the simple rule of cause and effect. Again, look at the line. It is the most simple form. Now...look at the universe. Look at the stars, the sun, the moon, the elements, with all it's complex rules of physics, look at all the creatures that live in it, the infinite, look at yourself...
If a simple, meaningless line, cannot come into existence by itself. How can we suppose the universe, as complex as it is, can?
Now ofcourse, people might argue that if this is true...how could then the Creator? How can the Creator come into existence by itself? I ofcourse don't know the answer. But I suspect the following: The Creator is the Creator of the universe and all the rules. The Creator created the rule of infinity, of time and space. The Creator is also the One Who "decided" that nothing comes into existence by itself. Because that also is but a rule. That means He stands above these rules and He, however contradictory it may sound, can come into existence by Itself. He is simply not bound by His own rules.
Ofcourse we cannot comprehend this, for we cannot transcend above the limitations of our own being. Fire cannot comprehend the wetness of water, because if has not the quality of wetness in common. Just as a chesspiece which can only move diagonally cannot comprehend the player which can move about freely. Just as a stone cannot comprehend the emotions of a human being. But even though we can't comprehend it, does not mean it can't be true...
That's what I thought of.
Now, I am tired. It's getting cold. So I end my piece.
Peace.
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Tuesday 6-05-2008, 2:21 AM, The Hague
Hi. Today was a good day. I performed in Nijmegen with the band and I am very satisfied. There were a lot of people. The audience was in a receptive mood and the weather was on everybody's side. Clouds had made way for the sun and my mind reflected the sky: it was clear. After the show we had some good reactions which is always very motivating and we sold some live albums. More than usual. Great! Thanks to everybody that was there today.
Also I am very satisfied with the website. I like the new artwork myself. Thank you Anne for taking the pictures!
We also recorded the whole show. Soon I will put some of the better recordings on youtube and on the website. The Inna-Truth myspace is also going very well. A lot of adds the past days. I hope this trend continues because it is great promotion.
This month I will be recording a song with an English singer, Catty Heath. Check her out on YouTube! Tomorrow I will try and work out some options for the album cover. Now I have the pictures, I can really work with something. I tell you, I am really looking forward to releasing the new album. I can't wait for everybody to hear it, and the reviews. Ofcourse, there will be some critisism. But isn't there always?
Anyway, it has been a good day, but also very tiring. The trip to Nijmegen was long. But it was worth it. Nijmegen is a beautiful city. I knew this before but today it really got me. The sun shone, the hills spoke, the people smiled. Life is good.
Last night...I had a sudden moment and I came up with two things that still linger in my mind and I wish to share.
1. Nothing is easy, but everything is possible.
2. Patience is a sign of trust and resignation.
Think about it.
But I cannot end with a quote of my own. I would instead end with a quote of a GREAT soul, namely, Tolstoy:
"To say that a work of art is good, but incomprehensible to the majority of men, is the same as saying of some kind of food that it is very good but that most people can't eat it." - Tolstoy
Peace.
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Saturday 3-05-2008, 3:18 AM, The Hague
I found this beautiful verse on love in the Mathnavi of the great poet Rumi. I would like to share this with you. Bear the length. It is very inspiring. Thank you. Peace
"A true lover is proved such by his pain of heart;
No sickness is there like sickness of heart.
The lover's ailment is different from all ailments;
Love is the astrolabe of God's mysteries.
A lover may hanker after this love or that love,
But at the last he is drawn to the KING of love.
However much we describe and explain love,
When we fall in love we are ashamed of our words.
Explanation by the tongue makes most things clear,
But love unexplained is clearer.
When pen hasted to write,
On reaching the subject of love it split in twain.
When the discourse touched on the matter of love,
Pen was broken and paper torn.
In explaining it Reason sticks fast, as an ass in mire;
Naught but Love itself can explain love and lovers!
None but the sun can display the sun,
If you would see it displayed, turn not away from it.
Shadows, indeed, may indicate the sun's presence,
But only the sun displays the light of life.
Shadows induce slumber, like evening talks,
But when the sun arises the "moon is split asunder."
In the world there is naught so wondrous as the sun,
But the Sun of the soul sets not and has no yesterday.
Though the material sun is unique and single,
We can conceive similar suns like to it.
But the Sun of the soul, beyond this firmament,
No like thereof is seen in concrete or abstract."
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Friday 2-05-2008, 4:16 AM, The Hague
My neck. Seriously, my neck. Maybe it's the lack of sleep. Maybe it's because I work behind this computer too much. I was hoping being an artist would save me from the '9 to 5 a desk job'. I was wrong.
Today was a good day though. I had a photoshoot with Anne Postma. We went to the fair and made some wonderful pictures. All for ETCM and the website. She might come the 5th of May as well, to our performance in Nijmegen. It would be great, because then there will be some nice new pics again for myspace, the website etc. I am also trying to arrange a video-camera for the 5th. It would be nice to have some new videos again for Youtube and the website. The videos I have now are old. Very old.
Yesterday I finished the novel. Finally. It took me over a year. Ofcourse I couldnt work on it full time. But it burned in the back of my head for a year, that's for sure. Its logical though, I have never written a novel before. It took me a while to get the hang of it. I made 6 versions in total. I am talking: all with different endings, beginnings, and basically different story lines. The only things they have in common are the main characters, Miralh and Máni. In about a week I will send it to Pim Lukkenaer who will evaluate it. I hope he will approve of it. If not....I will again have to make adjustments. I need to graduate. So that there no longer lingers an institute above my works. Also the illustrations are done. And the album is done. And the lyrics are done. And..the poems are done, but one. I haven't written a poem yet for the song "What You Have Created", which Yoshi Breen and I made together. I have some ideas for the poem, but just not the energy. Or better put, the focus. I really need to finish that last poem, so I can direct my total focus on the next step.
I will have to busy myself with the finances. Pressing, printing, promoting...it costs. Also I have to busy myself with the promotion. Via internet and if I have the money via other media. I have to focus on the bookings. Also I want to find out wether there are any lables interested in working together. I think it's time.
With all this hanging above me, I have asked Thijs en Jeroen to focus on the live act. Ofcourse there is a live act already, but the band is not yet able to play the new songs. Rehearsals need to be planned. Also I want to work with violists, accordeonists, singers and a sampler. I am not sure how, but I know it can be done. The question is wether I am the right person to set it up. If it were up to me, it would wait. I can't do all at the same time. I would wait until October. But I know that wouldn't be fair to the band. I don't want to keep them waiting any longer. I think it's a good idea that Thijs and Jeroen will set it up. I haven't asked Norman. I know he has ideas and if he wants to help Thijs and Jeroen that'd be great. But I think Norman and I can work together on other things. I think he could help me a great deal with the clip. Again, first money. But when I have the money I can work out a script with him and he might be able to arrange it. People are helpful. That's great. But not just for me. This isn't just my boat. We help eachother. And if "Inna-Truth" becomes succesful...the band gets to play. That's be great. We record, we perform, we travel, we stand...they play, I speak. That's how the word is spread. Music, as the key that opens the heart. Words, as a breeze that awakens the soul slumbering therein.
I feel like ending with a nice scripture...
"Thou art even as a finely tempered sword concealed in the darkness of its sheath and its value hidden from the artificer's knowledge. Wherefore come forth from the sheath of self and desire that thy worth may be made resplendent and manifest unto all the world." Baha'ú'llah, The Hidden Words.
I love this verse. Beautiful.
Goodnight. It is now 4:52 AM. I go to bed.
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Thursday, 1-05-2008, 7:15 AM, The Hague
My thumb aches. I have been sitting behind my computer for hours now. I am trying to pave the way for the album release, which means I have to bring back to life my myspace account. Also Joyce and I have designed an Inna-Truth logo. I am very happy with the result. I wanted a style that stood for the unification of east and west. I wanted a style that is based on Western letters but looks as if it's Eastern (Arabic). I think the result turned out great. Also a symbol came out of it. Only the letter ' I '. I am not sure how I will use it yet.
Tonight I have a photoshoot. Anne Postma will be taking the pictures. I need some graphic material for the album cover of ETCM, plus I want to adjust the website to the ETCM-feel. I hope to have the pictures by Friday. I will update the website in the weekend. This blog is also one of the things I wanted to include in the website. A blog makes the website live. A News sections is not enough. There's not always News to mention. But a blog...is like a diary. Everyday there is news. Ofcourse I dont think I can update the blog every day. But I will try and write as often as possible.
There are some inspiring holidays coming for me. First Gabon (Africa), where I will visit my father. He works there. And then follows a vacation to Spain where a part of my family lives. After this...the new year begins. Hard work. ETCM.
Ofcourse the 18th of June is coming nearer. I hope to win the Jacques de Leeuw Prijs. So much depends on it. If I win it. I will be able to pay for the printing of the book (etcm) and the pressing of the album AND do some good promotion (clip, presentation etc.)
In October I hope to go to Haifa, Israel for three days. I am saving up for it. There at the shrines of the Bab and Bahaullah, I will sit still. Regenerate my soul. Thinking about it reminds me of a beautiful piece of Writing. It is on the first page of "Gems Of Divine Mysteries" and goes:
"Thine epistle was received, thy question was noted, and the sweet accents of thy soul were heard from the inmost chambers of thy heart. Whereupon the clouds of the Divine Will were raised to rain upon thee the outpourings of heavenly wisdom, to divest thee of all that thou hadst acquired aforetime, to draw thee from the realms of contradiction unto the retreats of oneness, and to lead thee to the sacred streams of His Law. Perchance thou mayest quaff therefrom, repose therein, quench thy thirst, refresh thy soul..." - Baha'ú'llah, Gems Of Divine Mysteries
For some reason this part inspires me. These words, so connected with water, stream so fluently. When I read this I feel like I have come upon a fresh water well after a long walk in the scourging sun.
Anyway. Excuse my spelling. It's 7:36 AM. I go now.
Peace
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